I felt the need to write this blog at 2am in the morning. Alot of thoughts are running through my mind tonight. Most of it due to the hours I put in this week at work. You can say I feel burned out .. the combination of nights and the extra hours this week has finally hit me. And since I dont have anybody to talk to this early in the morning .. I resulted in the blog.
Alot of frustration this week due to the scale .. I can't really blame night shift for not really losing any weight. I expected to be at least in the 220's by the next of the week. So far I have really stayed at the same. I really don't understand why. I have really been eating the same as I was 2 weeks ago. But people have told me to wait it out .. and continue to do what I am doing. Its just alot of built in frustration that comes along with it. I would go work out but don't think I really can eating 500-600 calories a day.
Another reason why I'm feeling really down ... The only way I really get to talk to my close friends is through email and the phone. I haven't been really able to catch up with them since I started on this diet. Mainly because I can't really go out and eat anything I really like to eat. And since I'm on a different schedule than they are .. it makes it that much harder for us to hang out. Email and phone communication is really what keeps me sane.
But enough with my venting. I just really hope this week passes by quick. On a better note, one of my close childhood friend is getting married this Saturday. I am the so called "pseudo dj" .. At least I can look forward to that this coming weekend. It wont help that there will be lots of good food and alcohol at the wedding .. but I think I have the self control to choose what I want to eat.
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